Finding someone who’s willing to drown with you creates a situation where you no longer want to drown.
I don’t want that. Not to be your every thought your every pulse, I don’t want to hinder you or surround you. I want to be the soft song in the background to the moments you spend alone, thinking of nothing at all.
Rakiski, So Goes the Smoke
I think we still live in a culture that assumes that men are single by choice and women are single because no one wants them.
Absence, the highest form of presence.
James Joyce, A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man
People are like cities: We all have alleys and gardens and secret rooftops and places where daisies sprout between the sidewalk cracks, but most of the time all we let each other see is is a postcard glimpse of a skyline or a polished square. Love lets you find those hidden places in another person, even the ones they didn’t know were there, even the ones they wouldn’t have thought to call beautiful themselves.
Hilary J. Smith, Wild Awake
Once in a while it really hits people that they don’t have to experience the world in the way they have been told to.
For my part I know nothing with any certainty, but the sight of the stars makes me dream
Vincent van Gogh
Sometimes, I forget that I am young. I forget that I have only been blessed with a quarter of a century. I forget that mistakes are part of trying. I forget that fear is motivation, not food for anxiety. I forget that friendship takes kindness, and openness. I need to forget those who have made me less kind and less open. I forget the way a first kiss feels. I forget to smile sometimes. I forget what it’s like to be wooed, except by myself. I forget that it’s better to woo yourself than to expect others to do it for you. I forget how to give a genuine hug to someone other than my mother and my father. Because I’m fearful others won’t return it. I forget the sound of my first boyfriend’s voice. I forget to eat well. I forget to make eye contact, retail has killed a friendlier version of myself. I forget not to stand tall and act like I don’t care, because of how I was approached when I cared. I forget that kindness and courage can go hand in hand. I forget who I was when I was 19. I forget what it looks like when someone wants to be your friend. I forget because I remember that no one can change my life, only I can. I remember these wonderful women who have looked me in the eye, and told me good, and kind words. Strong words. I forget that each day is a blessing. That each day is what I make it. That each day belongs to me and me alone. I forget. I’m going to forget forgetting and start remembering.
Loneliness does not come
from being alone,
but from being unable
to communicate the things
that seem important.
I notice that Autumn is more the season of the soul than of nature.